so even before i came out i have always gotten along with men better than women..i mean they were jus always easier to talk to and chill wit..the females i knew where always tryin to be fass and that jus wasnt me..plus i was a tomboi which made it even harder for me to fit in wit girls my age.
now that i been out its even easier for me to connect with males..i mean im close to females as well but most of them are lesbians so we are more lyke familii..unless there is a strong common interest straight girls and i dont get that close..as of right now i have 2 close straight female friends and one of them jus left for the fleet. im in a class of 6 and there is onlii one other female in the class besides me..i get along great with 3 of the 4 males in the class and she and i arent reallii that close..which is crazii cuz we were in bootcamp togetha and used to be roommates and have been in 3 classes together so far..but then again she is the type of female that uses men to get out of doin her job as well as for other thyngs so i dont fux wit her at all.
but its crazii cuz all the males that i kno obviouslii kno that im gay and they seem to want to become good friends with me..at first there are tons of ?uestions about wat lesbians "do" but after that they tend to love to chill wit me..they always treat me lyke one of the boys and always have my bakk..
the thyng is i have verii few strong withstandin female friendships..i thynk its because there are so manii more emotions involved in the friendship..wit males i find that no matter how long you dont talk to them or see them when you get bakk togetha the friendship is the same..the love is the same..plus males get over arguements and fights alot easier than females..they dont hold grudges as long and dont get hung up on pettii stuff.
now i would love to have long withstanding female friends and i do actuallii have a handful which right now is enuff..i jus have a lot easier tyme chillin wit males..espcialii males in the military..they except my queerness and love me for it actuallii..its lyke that part of my lyfe makes me an honorary man to them..maybe thats whii my male friendships are easier to foster and maintain..because males except me easier and right away..everiione want to have friends that they fit in with..that take them for wat they are..and outside of queer men and women..straight men are next in line.
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