step 1

ok so i went and talked to my recruiter today and started my process to get everythin goin, i go to meps on tuesday and wednesday of next week, im sooo excited. i go get a ASVAB study book and start gettin ready, then i call my mom tell her whats up....my mom is really cool wit it, i mean she's lyke hooyah(she was in the navy too) but then i call my dad....and jus lyke last night except more aggressive today he is tryin to talk me out of it, tellin me its a horrible decision and that i will regret it fot the rest of my lyfe....i dont understand how he is always so negative about the decisions i wanna make, i mean when i decided to move from the west coast to the east coast he was dead set against it and when i wanted to be a police officer he was dead set against it....i feel lyke he can never support me in anyway unless its movin to cali to live wit him.
but hey at least i got the support of my mother's side and my girl....i mean they have alwasy been the ones that really looked after me and provided for me. my father alwasy thought he could buy my love wit gifts and money, and even still he tries to do it now that im 22....but it doesnt matter cuz im not gonna let him force the path of my lyfe and future....im gonna stand on my own two feet make a decision and stick by it, the navy will teach me the skills i need for lyfe and a career....wish me luck and keep me in your prayers.

called the recruiter

Ok so today after a long weekend of thought i called the recruiter to set up a visit....i feel good, excited and even alittle scared as i get ready to take this step. not scared lyke afraid that ima fuck up my lyfe or anythin, jus scared about what i could be....i mean everyone gets used to their everyday lyfe and i think its when we step outside of whats normal for us that a type of fear of how wonderful we could become by makin a change that scares us....well at least that what is is for me. im afraid that i could be great and the navy and really accomplish alot, afraid that leavin my family, girl, and friends behind could be the best thing for me.... i guess im that i could go off to the navy and be more than lazy, spoiled, unmotivated, clueless bout lyfe, and all the things i have been for so long, the anticipation is buildin inside my chest and it feel lyke an ever expandin bubble that will pop once i go off to basic. ive been thinkin about joinin the navy since i graduated form high school and for some reason or another i have never been serious about it, but now when im down to the bottom of the 9th for my dependency on my family i realized that i dont have to be afraid that this decision is a good one. after to talkin to family, my girl and friends boht old and new(Luciii c) i have come to the conclusion that sometymes you have to step outside yourself and look at where you lyfe is takin you and where you want to go. i cant wait to be a navy woman to put on that uniform wit pride and make a future for my girl, myself, and our future family. trust there will be plenty of blogs and photos to come as my journey progresses....tomarrow i start takin steps toward the beginin of my lyfe, not discountin my past, jus addin and illustrious future.

thinkin of enlistin...

Ok so im about to graduate from college on Dec. 20th, and so far wit the economy the way it is the job market becomin on the bench i only have a few options: 1) move back to the west coast wit my family and try to find a job, eventho my grandmother jus informed me yesturday that the news reported that 250,000 ppl had lost their jobs in the past 5 months; 2) stay here in MD get a job and roommates and struggle til i get get somethin better when the job market picks up; or 3) join the navy for 4 years if i dont lyke it, wit all the ameneties. now the best lookin option is #3, for the simple fact that ill have health care and steady income, good salary, housing, money for school should i decide to go back after a year, and since im a college grad i can enter in at a higher rank or get into the officer program. both my uncle and stepfather have retired from the navy in the past year, my uncle did 20 or 21 years and my stepfather did 21 or 22, they both made the navy their career, im not gonna do that i want to do 4 years and then join the FBI. i've looked into the officers program and hopefully i can get into intelligence.