loss of feelings

yo since i been in the navy i have started noticin that i dont feel as much as i did when i was a civilian..i mean i miss my familii and friends from and the ones i made in the navy but not the same way i would miss ppl before i joined the navy. iguess since i been in the navy i have gotten used to the idea that ppl are goin to be constantlii comin and goin in and out of my lyfe for the next six years as well as the idea that i wont be seein my familii that often aniimore. before i joined the navy i was always able to compartmentalize my feelings..i was able to turn them on and off lyke a light switch..from the tyme i was 5 havin to deal with familii illness and the death of my grandfather i was able to jus push those feelings aside and focus that pain in productive way..i still felt it but was able to use it to drive myself..now its kinda lyke i dont feel it at all..i mean for a few days its present at the forefront of my mind..but after that its jus disappears..its crazii how in a year i have changed so much..i dont cry bout shyt aniimore..and im severelii detached from my feelings..
i can still love and feel for a female but when they leave the pain isnt as bad as it used to be..iguess when you take on a job that requires you to be away for long periods of tyme you start to learn how not to feel as much in order to protect yourself..i used to do an ok job at not feeling but now ima fukkin expert at the shyt..75% of my friends have left for the fleet and i do miss chillin, clubbin, eatin out, shoppin, and jus plain talkin to them but at the same tyme the miss is dfferent..i dont feel down or depressed after they leave..there is some type of emptiness but its less and goes away a lot faster.
twitter and facebook make it easier too..being able to talk to ppl no matter where they are and actualii see them..skype is bout to be my bestfriend..but at the same tyme i still feel some type of disconnect form my feelings..lyke they have had the volume turned down on them, muted so to speak.
i jus hope it doesnt get worse..where i dont feel nothin eitha way..guess i gotta keep myself rooted in my familii and friends so i dont alienate myself from them..i tend to do that a lot..grow apart from ppl not because i want to..iguess cuz its easier to grow apart..ppl jus loose touch ova tyme..i dont want that aniimore..i want to cultivate and grow a relationship..but i do lyke the fact that everiityme ppl leave im ok after they are gone..idk..we shall see how thyngs change once im in the fleet.