called the recruiter

Ok so today after a long weekend of thought i called the recruiter to set up a visit....i feel good, excited and even alittle scared as i get ready to take this step. not scared lyke afraid that ima fuck up my lyfe or anythin, jus scared about what i could be....i mean everyone gets used to their everyday lyfe and i think its when we step outside of whats normal for us that a type of fear of how wonderful we could become by makin a change that scares us....well at least that what is is for me. im afraid that i could be great and the navy and really accomplish alot, afraid that leavin my family, girl, and friends behind could be the best thing for me.... i guess im that i could go off to the navy and be more than lazy, spoiled, unmotivated, clueless bout lyfe, and all the things i have been for so long, the anticipation is buildin inside my chest and it feel lyke an ever expandin bubble that will pop once i go off to basic. ive been thinkin about joinin the navy since i graduated form high school and for some reason or another i have never been serious about it, but now when im down to the bottom of the 9th for my dependency on my family i realized that i dont have to be afraid that this decision is a good one. after to talkin to family, my girl and friends boht old and new(Luciii c) i have come to the conclusion that sometymes you have to step outside yourself and look at where you lyfe is takin you and where you want to go. i cant wait to be a navy woman to put on that uniform wit pride and make a future for my girl, myself, and our future family. trust there will be plenty of blogs and photos to come as my journey progresses....tomarrow i start takin steps toward the beginin of my lyfe, not discountin my past, jus addin and illustrious future.